the process of becoming

a blog for twenty-somethings trying to navigate the world and follow your dreams

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it’s okay, you don’t have to know

And we’re back! I couldn’t tell you how many problems I’ve been having with my laptop, my internet at home, and lastly Google Chrome itself! After so much troubleshooting, sometimes I just need to have a literary sit down for 30+ minutes to recharge. Anyone else have this problem?

Thus, I’ve been keeping busy reading Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs and Unbroken by Laura Hillenbrand (the latter courtesy of my wonderful mother lending such a popular book to me).

I’ve also been doing a lot of thinking in regards to my career. As a recent graduate and a twenty-something, I so often get asked what job I am currently working. I’m sure you can relate! But when I admit that it’s not what I spent thousands of dollars on my degree for, they ask me where I’d rather be and what I want to pursue.

The problem?

I’m not sure yet.

See, I find myself getting anxious when the pressure gets put on. I’m young, the whole world is ahead of me (okay, minus undergrad, so I can’t really change that), I have so many options. Also, I get the sense from others that, since I went to school for 3.5 years already and graduated with honors, I should know what I want to do. College should have given me the magical answer.

But there is no magical answer. As a naive, PSEO-ed freshman, I thought there was. I thought I would be adored for my high grades, intern up the wazoo, and graduate with a full-time job lined up. But life – and college – doesn’t always turn out the way you hope. It wasn’t that I didn’t try. I just filled those 3.5 years up with so, so much that by the time I was nearing graduation, I was running out of steam. I wore myself thin trying to be great and ended up in a post-graduate funk complete with depression and a feeling of helplessness. I got distracted by my emotionally-taxing job and ran out of the energy that gets me out of my comfort zone.

Now, I’m ready to get out of the funk. I’m learning to take care of my mental state and narrow down what I want from this life. Because my problem in college was that so many things sounded good to me. Can’t I do it all?

I’m sure I’m not the only one who felt – and still often feels – this way. But no, you cannot do it all. In fact, you should be able to narrow it down to a healthy focus on where you want to end up in life.

I can’t help feeling that this is too optimistic even for someone a year out of college. As an early twenty-something, I don’t have to know exactly what I want to do forever. I’m actually enjoying still discovering the possibilities of all that the world could hold for me and my Writing & Lit degree.

So I want to encourage you post-grads, college students, and twenty-somethings out there: you don’t need to know right now. What matters right now is figuring out when to say “yes” and when to say “no.”

I am finding the value in saying “yes” to opportunities like interning at a pro-life non-profit for 4 months, being on a church planting launch team in Northeast Minneapolis for 2 years, and submitting applications for more internships and volunteer work in the writing fields I am still thinking and learning about.

I am finding the value in saying “no” to trying too many things at once. Finding the value in not taking pride in how busy I can be. I am finding time to relax with coffee, laugh with friends, and read good books. To take care of my mental health.

Opportunities can be either good or bad. Say “yes” to the ones that matter and are important to you. It could save you time by showing you something you don’t like or fit with, or it could further reinforce what you want to pursue. Just don’t say “yes” to them all! (: Soon the future will become clearer.

Tomorrow I will talk about what I’m doing to try to narrow down my career path.


Hey look, I’m famous!

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My good friend Jessica is the social media intern right now for the English Department blog at my school, a position I held the fall semester of my sophomore year. And she interviewed me! Whaddya know. She did a fantastic job taking my silly email quotes and making them into a substantial post (:

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